CUNNILINGUS - PART II

When I grew up in Brooklyn in the fifties, I was upset when I read in a book called IDEAL MARRIAGE, that oral sex was occasionally permitted, but only as a preliminary. To me it was the whole pie, the total, the beginning, the middle and the end.



It wasn't until I read SEX WITHOUT GUILT by Albert Ellis that I began to perceive that, as I had passed through my adolescence, I had been stuffed full of moralistic, propagandist preachings of uptight sexologists. Thus Albert Ellis, set me free and with an assist from Henry Miller, I was able to let my pubic garden grow.

Sex was always discussed openly in my family and my parents never laid down taboos in this area. I was a virgin until I was sixteen; then my mother and father felt that I should have my first sexual experience, and they called upon my swinging uncle in NYC to initiate me.

My uncle found a willing accomplice in his girlfriend, and I still remember going up to their apartment ten o' clock at night and being passionately welcomed between her thighs. The lights were out so I never saw her, but I never forgot her words; "Anything you want to do is fine." And that was my first introduction to cunnilingus.

Even my sex fantasies are very oral. But they also are about women who, if they are not dominant, are at least in the ascendant position and are thrusting forth their own wanton and animalistic needs. Fucking is animalistic, and its rampant passion is what I want when I engage in making love to another person. One of my most frequent sex dreams is that of a long legged thin woman sitting on my head and, as I perform cunnilingus she fucks my tongue with the horny precision of a marching band at halftime on the day of the Superbowl.

She's looking down at me, saliva moistening her lips; her nose is flaring as she goes up and down building to her climax. I feel so magnificent because I am giving her this wonderful feeling and sharing it with her. Although I am really nothing more than a tongue and a sexual object, for that period of time I am submerged, immersed in space and I feel fulfilled and I peace with myself.